Sometimes I wonder what kind of person I am?? Do I know what I want?? That sometime usually occurs when I end my job. And today was that day. I joined this contractor a month ago. The salary was fixed on first day. He agreed on it and I was happy too. The job site was not far from my house. Around 2 Km may be. I was able to have my lunch at home during the lunch time. And was doing great.
There were site problems. The labors were not skilled. I was expecting that they will know something. But I was having hard time explaining everything more than 2-3 times. But I didn’t mind that. That was my job. I had to look in for everything and due to simultaneous locations I was unable to concentrate on one thing. And there were some mistakes made.
As a professional I took my responsibility for them. But soon whatever used to happen was pulled on me. I was working harder and harder to make things right. Actually I was loving the amount of troubles I was getting. That may sound weird but true. That makes me feels that I’m doing something. And all was going well for me till yesterday which was salary day. I was shocked when I didn’t receive the salary fixed. He held me responsible for some problems and told me that I’m not worth that much. And that hurts!! that really hurts man!!!
I couldn’t control my feelings and left the job. My heart says I did the right thing. Since I’m mindless there is no question of that. But there is something in my head which makes me think. I don’t know what it is. That thing asks me question. Did i did the right thing?? My heart is like a butterfly I feel. It’s not stable and keeps moving from one flower to another. But the sudden drop of this job created something called frustration in me. And I’m trying to take it out. I’m searching for a good FPS to do the killing.
Now in search of next job…
Thanks for reading my nonsense. I had to express it to someone…