For the past three years I was in confusion. I was badly in need of someone who will guide me. I never wanted to attend the seminars and paid lectures for guidance. Because I attended some and thought they just recite what they write and that’s it. Most of the time they show you path in the stream you study. Nothing else.
For me it’s different. I always wanted to do something else and was not doing that thing. I got a degree in Civil Engineering but my interest was always towards Computers. I always wanted to pursue my dreams in that field. But the confusion was that I studied for so long in one field and just leaving that for what was then my hobby would be foolishness. Also getting a degree in Civil Engineering was difficult. I achieved it with some difficulty.
Three years I am into this field and did good wherever I worked. At least I was satisfied with my work. Never relaxed and always wanted to do better than earlier. By every job my pay scale also increased and tempted me to take this path. Lots of difficulties and I loved them. I don’t like easy jobs. I think they kill me.
There was one big issue though. I was unstable. Means my jobs last only six months. Though there were valid reasons in changing every job, they don’t count. Giving reasons for your failure is very easy. Result was five jobs in three years. I got great amount of experiencing doing every job. I learned a lot. A LOT…But I was not satisfied. I was ignoring my dreams. Dreams which were crazy and what everyone would laugh at.
The dilemma continued and I was still in search of Guru, a guide. I ended up reading lot of books to fill the voids of a guide. Always keeping myself inspired to move ahead. They helped me. While doing this I found my guide, The Alchemist – Paulo Coelho. Reading that book, I saw myself as that boy. It looked like I traveled instead of him.
Earlier, after loosing my job last month in unusual circumstances, I thought of learning new skills and took a break. I applied for all the ads and anything I found for first fifteen days. Then I stopped. Then came this book and I made my decision. I will pursue my dreams. Even if I fail I don’t have to blame anyone or give a reason. It was my decision. I am responsible for the consequences.
I have very rough road ahead now. It will take some time till I earn good from this and then another some to get success. Everything what I need is destined. I only need to work hard to reach my destiny. As I finish I recommend you to read this book. That may help you.
Honesty is the best policy. Remember this quote? When I was in my school, back in fifth standard I was thought this. It’s not just me but the whole class. Some followed this way and others didn’t. I am among the ones who followed the honest path. Those who are honest by now know that it’s very difficult to be honest. For me it’s creating not just problems but troubles.
I see peoples choosing the “other path” for the sake of success. And success for them is merely measured in terms of the green color. The more they have it the more successful they are. The “other path” you take may seem smooth at start but as you proceed it will get difficult. This is very opposite to the honest path.
When you work on honest path you get troubles and admirers too. This comes from my job experience. I worked hard. Everyday I had sweat bath. I lost my sleep. I lost my interests. I was distanced from my friends. All for the sake of this job. I kept telling myself.. “Just for another few days and things will get easy.” When that time came, I was accused of taking bribe.
This was the first time in my life someone said like this to me. I couldn’t stand it. I decided to quit the job. To my goodness, I got a suspension before quitting the job. I should have quit at the moment I was accused. Though I was given an option to work on another site by my employer, I didn’t. I lost my faith and trust in him.
Later on I found out that he recruited three freshers for the salary he used to pay me. Three for the price of one?? I was happy with my decision then. He is not the person whom you can trust. He doesn’t want to build a team but wants workers whom he can use and throw. He wants peoples who can dance the way he wants. I am surely not one of such.
Though happy with my decision, I felt very bad on losing the job. This was my best performance ever throughout my career. I wanted to work more here and learn more. It was not written in my faith. Sometimes I get a question, Is it worth working hard? The next moment the question disappears with answer “it is”. I look back and see myself working hard in tough conditions in a hope for better tomorrow. I end up jobless and being called as workaholic fool.
Good things to take were the good peoples who worked around me. I got many admirers who appreciated my work. I loved working with these people who worked hard. I wish to work with them again. With that hope I look forward…Who knows!!! Something great is waiting for me as I already have tasted goodness. 🙂
Emotions are what our life is made up of. Among all the emotions love and hatred are dominating. Let’s forget about love because it’s very difficult to love someone. The vice verse is true. It’s very easy to get angry or hate someone. You don’t believe this? Most of you do. But for those who don’t, I’ll give an example.
A typical situation. Husband and wife. It’s morning and he is in hurry. He is getting ready to go to office. Wife is busy making breakfast and his lunchbox. At the same time preparing the kids for school. The husband cannot find his hanky. His first reaction is he shouts. Get’s angry on his wife. Wife searches for hanky, finds it and gives to her husband. Husband takes it and shoots away for office.
Here a simple thing could have cooled down the things. A simple bye or hug or may be a kiss. That doesn’t cost much.(It doesn’t cost a cent!!) But anger doesn’t let us to think from heart. In fact it doesn’t allow us to think. The wind of anger blows away the lamp inside our mind. A simple solution is what needed in such situation and we cannot think of such solution.
Anger management must be hot business. When everyone is in anger, there are lot’s of potential clients. The first step of anger management is known to all. Just count from 1 to 10 or 10 to 1. And when you are very much angry, count to 100. Another thing you should know is that anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind. It’s better you carve this in your mind when you are not angry. Anger makes us strong, but that strength doesn’t last long.
So calm yourself and don’t get angry. Anger will not solve any problem but will lead to some more.
Till you are not angry…
It’s the fifth month of this year. I am reminding this to myself. It’s just because time seems to be flying and I am unable to catch him. For the last six days I had no problems actually with my connection or anything else that could stop me from blogging. The result is different though. I haven’t blogged and never felt like. This is the time that comes in every bloggers life.
Earlier I had weekends which acted like my thought gathering time. I used to write synopsis, gather facts and material required for blogging. Movies also add to this. But the problems has been this weekends. I am not free on these weekends. Either I have to attend some function or marriage else I have the gang waiting for me to join for a roller coaster ride of fun.
The other days of the week are wasted by my job. Those with a job where you have to stand for the whole day in the sun will know what happens to the thinking power. I am unable to think and create things as I used to earlier. This job is improving my professional career but it’s spoiling my blogging. No one would ever choose blogging over career.
Reading is not going well also. Books I bought for reading are lying in their places from the day I bought them. Google reader is showing a counter which will take a long time to come down to zero. All I expect from my readers is to have some patience for a while. I think I will be getting some time in coming time. :angel:
Till that time comes