Pain

​Pain is generally an unpleasant emotion. A spontaneous response from body to something it doesn’t want to keep inside. It is an alarm to some threat that is being caused to damage us. Starting with the first moment outside the womb, This one emotion always stays with you till the end of your life. Sometimes, It is a supplementary reaction to another emotion. Like when you laugh too much, You feel the pain in your stomach or cheeks. 

When I was a kid, little things used to cause pain. The obvious reaction to pain was the crying. This is often the case with everyone. Because that is the period of your life when you don’t know how to handle the pain. You aren’t used to it. As you age, you learn to suppress your pain. The intensity of which varies from person to person. 

There is one important fact that lies behind the pain. Many of us,  either aren’t aware of the fact or they ignore it. I found it the hard way. That fact is… Pain is what because of which you feel you are alive. How else would you find out that you are alive? Pinch a dead person and it won’t react. Pinch a live person, There will be some reaction to it. That’s what makes pain special. Pain makes you feel you are alive. That you exists. 

Over the years, As I said before, I have learned to suppress pain. That’s normal until a couple of days back.. I felt terrible. I questioned my existence. It was a small incident. I went to a hospital to get an injection. The syringe always gives you pain. That was my experience. But that day, I couldn’t feel anything. I was confused. Shocked. It happened again today when I didn’t feel anything after the injection. Am I dead? This question crossed my mind a thousand times. I couldn’t answer. I just tried to fool myself by telling that the nurses are good. They must have been trained well. What could have been other reason? 

Still, At the time of writing this I am expecting pain. I want some pain. Pain to make feel I am alive. 

I am not dead… Yet..

Also, I am not a Ghost Writer… 

So until I feel some pain..
Think Nonsense.. 

I am tired of being tired

Tired cat
Source

An empty chair to seat
for my legs to get some rest
and my bumps to have some stress
Pain in body is relieved
but not vanished

Standing up relieves my bumps
And puts stress on my legs
I feel the pain
It gets worse
What is happening to me?

Pile of files in front of me
I am trying to focus
Cool breeze kisses me
My eyes are closing now
What was there in that breeze?

Out there under the sun
He is trying to suck me
Like orange juice
For me, water is not enough
Nothing is enough
Thirst is never satisfied

My bed is not my friend
Not anymore
Laying on bed hurts
All the pain at same time
Then my eyes get closed
It doesn’t take long

The symptoms are repeated
They seem to be perpetual
once again the same question
What is happening to me?
I am tired
No…
I am tired of being tired

Truth

Truth. It’s bitter. Well almost most of the times. We stay away from truth as it always lead to pain. I was watching a Marathi drama “Yada-Kadachit”. It was a fun filled drama and contained the PJ’s which somehow made me laugh. The presentation was good and so was the idea. The characters from Ramayana and Mahabharata were mixed and the story emerged. But what strike me was the ending. It created many questions in my mind. Although I think nonsense but some sensible thoughts do come. You’ve to believe miracles do happen.

The ending raised a question. We all know that whatever may happen, In the end truth always wins. Now why does the truth wins always in the end?? This question was asked.
“In the end Truth always wins”
And the same sentence I’ve heard in many films, read in newspapers, blogs but the question never raised in my mind. It can be understood though such sensible things have no place in my mind. Have you ever been strike by this question?? I’ve never heard of any comments regarding this. Why truth never wins from start?? Why it has to wait till the end?? And bear all the pain only to see that there is little left for happiness.
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