Pain is generally an unpleasant emotion. A spontaneous response from body to something it doesn’t want to keep inside. It is an alarm to some threat that is being caused to damage us. Starting with the first moment outside the womb, This one emotion always stays with you till the end of your life. Sometimes, It is a supplementary reaction to another emotion. Like when you laugh too much, You feel the pain in your stomach or cheeks.
When I was a kid, little things used to cause pain. The obvious reaction to pain was the crying. This is often the case with everyone. Because that is the period of your life when you don’t know how to handle the pain. You aren’t used to it. As you age, you learn to suppress your pain. The intensity of which varies from person to person.
There is one important fact that lies behind the pain. Many of us, either aren’t aware of the fact or they ignore it. I found it the hard way. That fact is… Pain is what because of which you feel you are alive. How else would you find out that you are alive? Pinch a dead person and it won’t react. Pinch a live person, There will be some reaction to it. That’s what makes pain special. Pain makes you feel you are alive. That you exists.
Over the years, As I said before, I have learned to suppress pain. That’s normal until a couple of days back.. I felt terrible. I questioned my existence. It was a small incident. I went to a hospital to get an injection. The syringe always gives you pain. That was my experience. But that day, I couldn’t feel anything. I was confused. Shocked. It happened again today when I didn’t feel anything after the injection. Am I dead? This question crossed my mind a thousand times. I couldn’t answer. I just tried to fool myself by telling that the nurses are good. They must have been trained well. What could have been other reason?
Still, At the time of writing this I am expecting pain. I want some pain. Pain to make feel I am alive.
I am not dead… Yet..
Also, I am not a Ghost Writer…
So until I feel some pain..