Thank You for Giving Problems

Problems are part of  our life. There is no way anyone can escape from problems. If you try to escape from one problems, soon you’ll find yourself involved in another. This is perpetual process. Best way is to face them and get ready for another. Though there are times when it’s better to run away than to face the problem. Something similar is happening with me.

Out of all, job problems are the most prominent problems and they in turn lead to all gm,contractor other problems. It’s best to solve these problems first otherwise you’ll see problems everywhere. I did the crime of ignoring the problems. I just went ahead with my work and thought hard work will solve all the problems. I guess I was wrong this time.

I was a bit depressed after bring fired by some moron. He is from client side and is the root of all problems on site. But now I have reached the height of my patience. I can’t tolerate him anymore. On the hand I got this beautiful message from the GM of Contractor side. He is a good experienced fellow and talks to the point and is sharp.

He told me that I should thank him from giving problems. It is due to such moments you’ll be able to tackle peoples or morons like this. Getting depressed or tense will not solve the problems. It would only help such people to press you more. Try to tackle him. Such generous words always lift you. I love to work with experienced persons like this GM. Let’s see what’s happens next.

I am tired of being tired

Tired cat
Source

An empty chair to seat
for my legs to get some rest
and my bumps to have some stress
Pain in body is relieved
but not vanished

Standing up relieves my bumps
And puts stress on my legs
I feel the pain
It gets worse
What is happening to me?

Pile of files in front of me
I am trying to focus
Cool breeze kisses me
My eyes are closing now
What was there in that breeze?

Out there under the sun
He is trying to suck me
Like orange juice
For me, water is not enough
Nothing is enough
Thirst is never satisfied

My bed is not my friend
Not anymore
Laying on bed hurts
All the pain at same time
Then my eyes get closed
It doesn’t take long

The symptoms are repeated
They seem to be perpetual
once again the same question
What is happening to me?
I am tired
No…
I am tired of being tired

Time flies very fast

Today morning I woke up late. While in hurry to get ready and go for job, My eyes stopped on calender. It was 2nd February. Though I am aware of the dates and time everyday, I just stopped at calender. I couldn’t believe for a moment that one month of this new year has passed. It felt like last week was new year eve. But the calender shows something different. The bitter truth.

No one can control time. So do I. I felt like I wasted this whole month. I did nothing but just job, job and just job. I was still standing in front of calender. I cannot express that feeling in words correctly. But it was some kind of  bad feeling. I felt like I am turning into a robot who wakes up in morning. Goes to job. Comes back. Sleeps and repeats the whole cycle again.

Yeah!! In between those works I do the day to day mandatory stuff like eating, walking, brushing etc.etc. Other than that?? Well nothing. I got this feeling for the first time. I don’t want this again. I was like…. disturbed. Sigh… I walked towards bathroom for shower and the life cycle started again. Thank god.. It didn’t affect my work today.

I decided to blog about this and take out all the feeling. I reminded of Terminator. In this film those robots look very similar to humans. But they are from the future. I thought why future when we already are robots. We have become robot over the time. This everyday life cycle seems to be perpetual. I am not Arnold(My physic is the proof) and I don’t want to be like him. I am just good as Human being and not a robot. I cannot stop time but I will catch it’s speed. Soon. Very soon..

Till then..

Think Nonsense…

Recovery Sunday

Just over a week since I joined my new job and I am having troubles. Not in my job, but other than job but they affect my job. The biggest of them is my energy level. It seems to be going down once again. Three months ago, I started 10 minutes exercise on daily basis and it helped a lot to gain stamina. But as you know with the exercise routine. You just need a small reason to stop your exercise routine.

That small reason was that I was out of job. No more stamina needed to sit at home. So I stopped and it’s been 20 days now. After a week of job I realized I need to start it again. This job is like working in hell(I was there for a while and will be spending my afterlife there) :devil: . I hardly have time to sit. They have a office space for me with a working fan. That is a luxury when you are working on site. But I don’t have time to use this at full.

This  Sunday is acting like recovery day for me. I was too much tired out of the weeks work. There is some work going on site today also. I won’t be there on site.  If I work today then,  I won’t be able to give my best for the next week. A day off is much needed. When I woke up in the morning it was 10 am already. I am feeling good and relaxed today. This burnout happens with almost all working group. It was regular for me until three months back when I was doing exercise routine.

Looks like I have to start it again. Getting up early in morning is a pain, especially when it’s winter. I have to do it. A nice habit I got from working on this site is making a checklist of things. I’ll have to do the same for my exercise. Just 10 minutes in morning and then 10 minutes in evening make things much better. Good thing that I can have my lunch at home since the site I am working is near. That adds to healthy food, healthy diet. I’ll have to plan a better diet now. I’ll be going through all my bookmarks for the diet blogs. If you have good diet tips then feel free to comment. Just remember I am 100% vegetarian. :smile:

Think Nonsense…

Great start for new year

New year started well for me. On the first day itself my blog went down. It was offline for two days. I was already frustrated with my previous webhost so I decided to look for a new one. Now the blog runs on paid hosting and I don’t expect downtime here. But the start with this hosting was also not good. I went through a lot of trouble to import my blog database here. This is usually an easy task for me but it took almost 5 hours to get through.

I get instant support but the problem is he doesn’t understand the problem easily, even if I put everything in detail. That is minus point. I hope not to get any troubles from this hosting. I’ll have to monitor this for a month at least to check the uptime and errors. There is no room for such things now.

Meanwhile, I joined my sixth job :lol: I lost my last job 15 days back. Thanks to economic crisis. This job looks good like (the earlier one) :tongue: . I’ll be seating on frying pan here. The toughest job of my life is here and I am ready for it. There are many new things I’ll be learning. I never did a job like this so have little knowledge. Results will be in the form of mistakes which are not allowed in any profession.

Fingers crossed till six month job. If I can survive this span then I can survive the whole year. Trying to grasp things quickly. Problem is that I don’t have much time to study drawings on site. That is a big hurdle and I have to overcome it. Well…. very quickly…

BTW… Anyone missed me for two days?? :angel: