Its been a decade

Ten years ago, on this very same day, I bought this domain for my blog. The joy of typing www.thinknonsense.com in the address bar which then lead to my blog was overwhelming. At that time, I never thought I would stick to this domain for ten years. But then I did.

It’s not at all relevant to me that hardly anyone visits my blog. There are like 10 visitors a day and sometimes a spike is caused by the crawlers and bots. These stats, which was one of the reasons for which I bought domain, doesn’t matter to me anymore. What matters is that I have web presence which is unique in nature.

I would very much thank to Bizhat, my webhost, especially to a guy named Santosh who used to handle the backend. He helped me in setting up this domain. The new staff they have recruited is also helpful. I hope they continue giving free webspace and continue hosting my website while doing so.

Above all, thank you reader. Whoever you are, Wherever you are, thank you so much for visiting me.

Till we meet next time..
Think Nonsense…

My Conversation With God

Me: God.. Why have you kept me lonely so far? What’s your evil plan for me?
God: Who says you are lonely?
Me: Some family members of mine.
God: And?
Me: Some people around me.
God : And?
Me: Myself.
God: But I am with you. You don’t like my company?
Me: No no no. It’s not like that. I like to be with you. But you are God and not a person. Also, people believe in you. But if I say that I am talking to you when I am alone, they’ll admit me to the nearest mental hospital.
God: Is it about what people say to you or is it just you?
Me: *thinks for a while* It’s both.
God: You can’t fix people. They have their own twisted logic. What you can do is to fix yourself.
Me: Get a partner? I tried and I gave up. You aren’t helping me.
God: You’ll never be lonely if you have my company. The desire to have someone physically by your side is the root of this problem.
Me: But.. But.. What’s wrong in having such a desire? When I look around, everyone has someone with them. I feel left out.
God: Desire, expectation, make way for disappointment. You already know that. Yet you behave like you are ignorant.
Me: What should I do?
God: Don’t think about it. If at all you feel alone, give me a call.
Me: So you aren’t helping me to find a partner for myself.
God: I am. You can have a partner who may or may not be there always or You can have a partner who will always be there with you. Your call. *vanishing act*
Me: ………
Me: Fuck life…

Looking back…

Everyday, this year, I sit down and look back and I am overwhelmed. While thinking about it, I often get these questions. Do I deserve this? What have I done to deserve this? I don’t get clear answers for the questions. Every year, the when I ask the same questions, I get improvised answers . I continue to ask those questions in a hope that someday, I’ll get a clear answer.

But life doesn’t give you everything you want. It gives you what you deserve. And what you deserve depends on a complex equation with infinite variables. It is very difficult to determine the value of a variable. So I just leave the equation to solve by itself. Fate or destiny you may say.

Sometimes, You know the variable. You know which variable is causing the problem and you chase down the variable. The hunt gives a relief for a while. Then there are times when you know the variable but you can’t determine it’s value. This is the time when your patience, your integrity, your will and other core characteristics are tested.

Over the last couple of years, I have identified one such variable which is causing too much of trouble for me. That variable is companion. Believe me, I have tried. I have tried all possible ways to solve this but it’s not as easy as it seems. Apparently, the whole equation will be affected with the determination of this variable. I am stuck. I have no idea how to move forward. The hope that kept me going on for so long is fading out.

Will I be able to solve it before the hope fades out completely???

गुढीपाडव्याच्या शुभेच्छा

नवीन वर्ष. नवीन सुरुवात. यावर्षी काहीतरी वेगळं करण्याचा प्रयत्न करा.
साचेबद्ध राहण्यात काहीच अर्थ नाही. यावर्षी स्वतःसाठी थोडा वेळ काढा.
आपल्या माणसांसाठीसुध्दा थोडा वेळ काढा.
आयुष्यातील छोट्या छोट्या क्षणांचा आनंद लुटण्याचा प्रयत्न करा.
या तुमच्या प्रयत्नांसाठी माझ्या शुभेच्छा. नुतन वर्षाभिनंदन!!

Goals for 2018

I am back..
I am bigger..(Ummmm.. At least my belly is)
Like every year, I want to set some goals for this year. Because life without goals is nothing but…Zombie??? Yeah. Zombie is the right word. It’s aimless and boring… So let’s set some goals and try to get them to some through the post.
1) Solo trip: It’s back again on this year’s list and I have placed it at the top. That much is the importance of this trip for me. I don’t know where I’ll go, when I’ll go, But I want to make it happen this year.
2) Socialize : Last year, I stayed aloof for most of the time. It’s time to get back to being human. I’ll try to attend as many social functions as I can with the exception of weddings and ring ceremonies. Best to avoid THE question.
3) Books : I have been successful reaching this target every year for past 4 years. I am making it difficult this time by setting a target of 40 books. This is steep by my standards. More because I am planning to read more hard copies instead of ebooks.

Three are sufficient. This is a mammoth task and a lot of effort is required to fulfill these. Along with this, I will also try to unclutter my mind. I feel that I have got a great start for this year. Making the most out of it will help me reach my goals.
Until I free up my mind…
Think nonsense…