For the past three years I was in confusion. I was badly in need of someone who will guide me. I never wanted to attend the seminars and paid lectures for guidance. Because I attended some and thought they just recite what they write and that’s it. Most of the time they show you path in the stream you study. Nothing else.
For me it’s different. I always wanted to do something else and was not doing that thing. I got a degree in Civil Engineering but my interest was always towards Computers. I always wanted to pursue my dreams in that field. But the confusion was that I studied for so long in one field and just leaving that for what was then my hobby would be foolishness. Also getting a degree in Civil Engineering was difficult. I achieved it with some difficulty.
Three years I am into this field and did good wherever I worked. At least I was satisfied with my work. Never relaxed and always wanted to do better than earlier. By every job my pay scale also increased and tempted me to take this path. Lots of difficulties and I loved them. I don’t like easy jobs. I think they kill me.
There was one big issue though. I was unstable. Means my jobs last only six months. Though there were valid reasons in changing every job, they don’t count. Giving reasons for your failure is very easy. Result was five jobs in three years. I got great amount of experiencing doing every job. I learned a lot. A LOT…But I was not satisfied. I was ignoring my dreams. Dreams which were crazy and what everyone would laugh at.
The dilemma continued and I was still in search of Guru, a guide. I ended up reading lot of books to fill the voids of a guide. Always keeping myself inspired to move ahead. They helped me. While doing this I found my guide, The Alchemist – Paulo Coelho. Reading that book, I saw myself as that boy. It looked like I traveled instead of him.
Earlier, after loosing my job last month in unusual circumstances, I thought of learning new skills and took a break. I applied for all the ads and anything I found for first fifteen days. Then I stopped. Then came this book and I made my decision. I will pursue my dreams. Even if I fail I don’t have to blame anyone or give a reason. It was my decision. I am responsible for the consequences.
I have very rough road ahead now. It will take some time till I earn good from this and then another some to get success. Everything what I need is destined. I only need to work hard to reach my destiny. As I finish I recommend you to read this book. That may help you.
Unknowingly… I couldn’t think of better start. Thinking is a mystery process. It can create beautiful things. When done wrong way it can create things like what you see in this blog. The Nonsense. We start thinking of something. The process of thinking starts and it finishes when you reach to a conclusion which you think is it’s end. This simple process is very complex but we do it unknowingly.
Have you noticed Windows, the OS you always curse. It’s got a progress bar when it’s loading. It is processing in background and in the end it renders a beautiful interface with which you can interact with computer. As a Windows user you must have gone through a phase when it gets stuck at the loading phase. The progress bar keeps scrolling horizontally bringing all the bad words you ever know for Bill gates. Irritation. Similar happens when you think.
The progress bar gets stuck and in return you are stuck. You get confused. You are body less person. You are only head now which like surrounded by five brothers of your girlfriend punching you. Nothing else feels other than your head. The best part is, you have to think on how to stop thinking. Some more punches. Your head is size of pumpkin about to burst. What to do then?
Just find the body and rest the head on it. The pain will get transferred to the body and you’ll get relief. The progress bar moves ahead ready to render fresh thoughts.
I am going through the same phase and it’s my personal experience. Just use extra weights in your gym and see this thing working. I got a relief from all the thoughts fired at me from all direction. Not just quiet ready to think what I love to think.
But that should not stop you from thinking.
Till I get ready…
For last two months I am very busy in my websites and other online jobs. That is the reason I got no time to update this blog. Just today I looked at it and thought of resurrecting. My internet connection is as guilty as I am for not updating this blog. I promise within next few days you’ll see that this blog really lives up to it’s name.
Till I post new nonsense keep reading my old stuff and…