Life is getting busy. Now I have started playing pre-recorded replies like “I don’t have time”. This started from last two months. I was begging for a break from blogging so that I can gather some ideas and put some reinforcement into my writing. But I never decided when to take a break. That was till my April Fools prank.
If you wait for long enough, things come to you. The same thing happened with me. There is someone, some power looking after us. He sees what we want. He fulfills what we want. And suddenly one day my net connection was doomed. I kept calling on their support line but the problem was not solved.
Funny thing is the one who came to repair my connection didn’t even knew how to switch on modem. They were totally unaware of what the real problem is. Add to it another thing. Their senior who had knowledge about this was on vacation. So it was God’s full proof plan for my break. It was after his return that the actual problem was known and it took another week to repair it.
I must say though that I really enjoyed this time. Beach, movies and restaurant. Perfect way to enjoy. I also got time to read book. Though I haven’t finished the second one I bought. I got hold on some of my relationships and glued them. I was very happy for these things.
There were also sad things. My worst days on job. I really had bad time on job. Lotsa AK47 stuff. There was also rocket launcher by GM of our client. I was stressed out and desperately wanted to blog about this. I missed blogging too much for this. Now the things are looking normal. But you never know..
Where to start?? This was the question when I sat in front of my PC with Blog editor open. There is a lot to say but I am still finding it difficult to manage with time. This is affecting things I want to do. I am not that old blogger who started blog in last February with loads of stuff to write. Now I have no time to write but have stuff to write about.
For the past week I am busy with a major slab and that is taking hell out of me. I am finding it very difficult to manage things on site. For a small decision, I have to go through a lot of paperwork. The positive side is I am loving all the trouble. I want more and more of this. If the things get easy then my interest vanishes. I see a lot of troubles for next whole week.
Tired from the site when I sit in front of PC, I find it very difficult to arrange the words. I find it difficult to eve find words. Add to it my bad bad broadband. The result was the worst post count for February. Even worse was the quality of nonsense. I already made an announcement that I’ll be blogging alternate days from March. It has already started last month.
Today was a big relief. I woke up late and completed my sleep for the whole week. Then I watched a movie, two bowls of ice-cream, a looong shower and then reading. I read too much. Cleared almost 700+ posts in Google reader. There are less than 300 left now. Tired of reading online, I went offline for reading. After reading for 2 hours, I thought of posting. So far so good.
One of my website is still under construction. I’ll give it time this weekend. Things are changing on this blog also. Did you read my last post? I wrote a poem. Now I want to dedicate this month just for new connection and reviving old ones. Just want to change “I’ll try” to “I want”.
Till I do that…
Few days back I wrote a post. I thought it’s a bit incomplete. Today I met a person who made me feel that it’s incomplete. Time flies very fast. Especially when you are young. You don’t know when you cross your twenties and step into thirties and then forties. I am dragging this topic just because I don’t want anyone else to have the same experience as I had.
The working robot continues. It’s like you don’t have any options. You are bound to some relations which depend on you. Most work selflessly for others. I salute to them. But a time comes in your life when you have lots of time. Then you start asking some stupid questions to yourself. One of them is, What have I done for myself?
I worked hard. I gave all facilities to my children’s like a good parent. Did everything to keep them and all my family happy. During this I forgot myself. It’s not just my age which results in memory loss. Forgetting myself is not due to memory loss. I am trying to find a memory where I did something for myself. Which I wanted. There was no family involved. There was just me and that moment. My aged, weak memory doesn’t find one.
Talking with a person who have experienced life can be great. You just don’t add years to your professional experience. Personal experience counts more. I am glad I got some more. If you are a bachelor or single then just don’t run after finding job. Don’t just waste your life. Take some time out and enjoy yourself. If you are on a job, then take a leave just for you and no one else. Just a single day of you, for you. You’ll remember it forever. You’ll never ask yourself…
Where is me???
Good times, Bad times… They come and go. You never know when you’ll face one of them. So what should you do is be prepared for both of them. When everything is going good, just be prepared for some unusual situation that may arise. Don’t keep reminding yourself of that or else you’ll spoil the good time.
What I can say is most of us are not prepared for bad times. We always assume our time will be good. You never know… Then you fall in a situation like below. Tell me what you would have done in such a case?
Those with weak heart would get an attack. The man in the circle surely looks the type I am talking about. Eyes wide open and a big O of mouth. At least he is still there. Many disappear after such a situation like they have got power to be invisible. Disappeared in a flash….
Till you fall in such a situation… :tongue:
Today morning I woke up late. While in hurry to get ready and go for job, My eyes stopped on calender. It was 2nd February. Though I am aware of the dates and time everyday, I just stopped at calender. I couldn’t believe for a moment that one month of this new year has passed. It felt like last week was new year eve. But the calender shows something different. The bitter truth.
No one can control time. So do I. I felt like I wasted this whole month. I did nothing but just job, job and just job. I was still standing in front of calender. I cannot express that feeling in words correctly. But it was some kind of bad feeling. I felt like I am turning into a robot who wakes up in morning. Goes to job. Comes back. Sleeps and repeats the whole cycle again.
Yeah!! In between those works I do the day to day mandatory stuff like eating, walking, brushing etc.etc. Other than that?? Well nothing. I got this feeling for the first time. I don’t want this again. I was like…. disturbed. Sigh… I walked towards bathroom for shower and the life cycle started again. Thank god.. It didn’t affect my work today.
I decided to blog about this and take out all the feeling. I reminded of Terminator. In this film those robots look very similar to humans. But they are from the future. I thought why future when we already are robots. We have become robot over the time. This everyday life cycle seems to be perpetual. I am not Arnold(My physic is the proof) and I don’t want to be like him. I am just good as Human being and not a robot. I cannot stop time but I will catch it’s speed. Soon. Very soon..