Everyday, this year, I sit down and look back and I am overwhelmed. While thinking about it, I often get these questions. Do I deserve this? What have I done to deserve this? I don’t get clear answers for the questions. Every year, the when I ask the same questions, I get improvised answers . I continue to ask those questions in a hope that someday, I’ll get a clear answer.
But life doesn’t give you everything you want. It gives you what you deserve. And what you deserve depends on a complex equation with infinite variables. It is very difficult to determine the value of a variable. So I just leave the equation to solve by itself. Fate or destiny you may say.
Sometimes, You know the variable. You know which variable is causing the problem and you chase down the variable. The hunt gives a relief for a while. Then there are times when you know the variable but you can’t determine it’s value. This is the time when your patience, your integrity, your will and other core characteristics are tested.
Over the last couple of years, I have identified one such variable which is causing too much of trouble for me. That variable is companion. Believe me, I have tried. I have tried all possible ways to solve this but it’s not as easy as it seems. Apparently, the whole equation will be affected with the determination of this variable. I am stuck. I have no idea how to move forward. The hope that kept me going on for so long is fading out.
Will I be able to solve it before the hope fades out completely???
No. Age is not just a number.
It’s what you have achieved and what you have failed to achieve.
It’s people you love and those who hate you.
It’s what you love and what you hate.
It’s you being stubborn and it’s you being compromising.
It’s letting new people into your life and losing some.
It’s everything compressed into two digits. Sometimes three..
So NO. Age is NOT just a number.
Here I am
This is me
Just nowhere else on earth
I rather be
I am back at last to make your brains work(in a way they shouldn’t be). I am sure many of you must have missed my dose of nonsense. If not then good for you. You’ll get some more minutes to read some good stuff. Maybe prepare a cup of tea or coffee for yourself. Good use of time. Where was I these days? How can I live my blog without an entry?
I was sick. Severe fever(rhyming words. can be used in poems). It was Friday and I was really happy that the next day will be Saturday. Not for long when I woke up with a fever of 101F. WTF??(Here WT is not a number and should be read as letters). Couldn’t stand properly, there was no way I could go on myself to the doctor. Shame on me. So took a paracetamol and waited for next day. I hate to do such thing. My cousin came and he took me to the doctor the next day. Still the fever 101F. WTF?? I completed course and went again on Wednesday. Feeling good now.
Do you now how much fun I missed?? It had to come in just those three days?? On Friday it was my cousins birthday. The same one who took me to doctor. On Saturday we have a ritual ceremony to get blessings from our ancestral spirits. I never miss that. And on Sunday it was my Father’s birthday. It was celebrated at our main house and I was “carried away” to there. In spite of being sick my nose could smell all those delicious dishes which later they didn’t allow me to eat. Just two more days. That animal will come out soon.
I’ll finish it here. Keep humming the song. If you don’t know then the song is “Here I am” by Bryan Adams from the album Spirit: Stallion Of The Cimarron. Do a google search you’ll get the whole album for free. See ya soon. Keep reading and
The problem seems to have started again. I thought I’ll miss my post for today. But I am able to post at this time. I am unable to find what is the problem. I thought my phone line is dead. I am unable to make or receive any call. This started yesterday night when I was trying to login. Very slowly I was able to login. I checked my e-mail and answered some of them.
Then I started entrecard and checked the drop inbox. There were lots of drops. I was with my friends on Saturday. So I was offline for that day and then Yesterday I went for a wedding reception. Had some fun there and when I returned I was unable to connect. My friend staying nearby was able to connect. So I think it may be phone line problem.
It has become my habit to blame ISP first and then to find the real cause. That way I get peace of mind 👿 I also have a doubt on my router. For past few days I am handicapped due to no torrent downloads. Whatever you say but I love them and use them for my personal use. Though it’s still illegal. :angel: This month I had the lowest bandwidth consumption. Still three days to go. I am sure I’ll never get to the average of last few months.
Oh!! And as I have said many times through my blog entries, I enjoy a lot when I am offline. So exactly the same thing happened. On Saturday I set an example of being shameless. There is this friend of us who stay in Mumbai. He called to wish the Birthday boy and it was a call of bad words. The cellphone was passed from every friend to other. And all you had to do was to give him mouthful of bad words and pass it on. All my friends gave the golden words in soft words and till it was me who said it loud. It was stunning!!!! I never said a bad word so clearly and publicly in my whole life. It was very enjoyable moment. And there was a burst of laughter among all friends that took a while to stop. Almost all of them had their head down to table except… guess who??? I grabbed some attention too. It was fun and an unforgettable moment. Now recall your first time of bad words.
Till I post my next post…
A Little while ago, on the very same day someone was born. This guy gets a year old today. That guy proved to be headache for many. Just talking nonsense and writing nonsense. he just started to ruin others life. But the motive was simple. Make others laugh for a while and think different for a while.
By now you must have guessed. Yeah it’s me. This weird creature was born today. I don’t know how many peoples liked me or may be hated me during these years. But I never actually wanted to hurt anyone. I am a very crazy guy and proud about my craziness. Just because does the best thing I like in this world. It brings a beautiful smile on someones face.
This skeleton is horrifying, But certainly not to be afraid of. While I’m writing this I received a birthday message from someone I never expected to be the first one. Such unexpected things are my likes. At least I got a beautiful start today. Making the day beautiful is my duty.