I can’t give solutions to all of life’s problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you and together we will search for answers.
I can’t change your past with all its heartache and pain,
Nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can’t keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, success, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you ask.
I can’t prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you, and wait for you.
I can’t give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself.
I can’t keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place.
I can’t tell you who you are.
I can only be your friend.
For the past three years I was in confusion. I was badly in need of someone who will guide me. I never wanted to attend the seminars and paid lectures for guidance. Because I attended some and thought they just recite what they write and that’s it. Most of the time they show you path in the stream you study. Nothing else.
For me it’s different. I always wanted to do something else and was not doing that thing. I got a degree in Civil Engineering but my interest was always towards Computers. I always wanted to pursue my dreams in that field. But the confusion was that I studied for so long in one field and just leaving that for what was then my hobby would be foolishness. Also getting a degree in Civil Engineering was difficult. I achieved it with some difficulty.
Three years I am into this field and did good wherever I worked. At least I was satisfied with my work. Never relaxed and always wanted to do better than earlier. By every job my pay scale also increased and tempted me to take this path. Lots of difficulties and I loved them. I don’t like easy jobs. I think they kill me.
There was one big issue though. I was unstable. Means my jobs last only six months. Though there were valid reasons in changing every job, they don’t count. Giving reasons for your failure is very easy. Result was five jobs in three years. I got great amount of experiencing doing every job. I learned a lot. A LOT…But I was not satisfied. I was ignoring my dreams. Dreams which were crazy and what everyone would laugh at.
The dilemma continued and I was still in search of Guru, a guide. I ended up reading lot of books to fill the voids of a guide. Always keeping myself inspired to move ahead. They helped me. While doing this I found my guide, The Alchemist – Paulo Coelho. Reading that book, I saw myself as that boy. It looked like I traveled instead of him.
Earlier, after loosing my job last month in unusual circumstances, I thought of learning new skills and took a break. I applied for all the ads and anything I found for first fifteen days. Then I stopped. Then came this book and I made my decision. I will pursue my dreams. Even if I fail I don’t have to blame anyone or give a reason. It was my decision. I am responsible for the consequences.
I have very rough road ahead now. It will take some time till I earn good from this and then another some to get success. Everything what I need is destined. I only need to work hard to reach my destiny. As I finish I recommend you to read this book. That may help you.
For last two months I am very busy in my websites and other online jobs. That is the reason I got no time to update this blog. Just today I looked at it and thought of resurrecting. My internet connection is as guilty as I am for not updating this blog. I promise within next few days you’ll see that this blog really lives up to it’s name.
Till I post new nonsense keep reading my old stuff and…
Honesty is the best policy. Remember this quote? When I was in my school, back in fifth standard I was thought this. It’s not just me but the whole class. Some followed this way and others didn’t. I am among the ones who followed the honest path. Those who are honest by now know that it’s very difficult to be honest. For me it’s creating not just problems but troubles.
I see peoples choosing the “other path” for the sake of success. And success for them is merely measured in terms of the green color. The more they have it the more successful they are. The “other path” you take may seem smooth at start but as you proceed it will get difficult. This is very opposite to the honest path.
When you work on honest path you get troubles and admirers too. This comes from my job experience. I worked hard. Everyday I had sweat bath. I lost my sleep. I lost my interests. I was distanced from my friends. All for the sake of this job. I kept telling myself.. “Just for another few days and things will get easy.” When that time came, I was accused of taking bribe.
This was the first time in my life someone said like this to me. I couldn’t stand it. I decided to quit the job. To my goodness, I got a suspension before quitting the job. I should have quit at the moment I was accused. Though I was given an option to work on another site by my employer, I didn’t. I lost my faith and trust in him.
Later on I found out that he recruited three freshers for the salary he used to pay me. Three for the price of one?? I was happy with my decision then. He is not the person whom you can trust. He doesn’t want to build a team but wants workers whom he can use and throw. He wants peoples who can dance the way he wants. I am surely not one of such.
Though happy with my decision, I felt very bad on losing the job. This was my best performance ever throughout my career. I wanted to work more here and learn more. It was not written in my faith. Sometimes I get a question, Is it worth working hard? The next moment the question disappears with answer “it is”. I look back and see myself working hard in tough conditions in a hope for better tomorrow. I end up jobless and being called as workaholic fool.
Good things to take were the good peoples who worked around me. I got many admirers who appreciated my work. I loved working with these people who worked hard. I wish to work with them again. With that hope I look forward…Who knows!!! Something great is waiting for me as I already have tasted goodness. 🙂
Today I can forget my Yesterdays post. So do you. Just when I was troubled by heat, Shower of rain cooled the things. I am much relieved from the heat. At least I’ll be able to concentrate more on the work. Funny thing is that, there is very less work for me when it rains. That may not be the case here on this job.
Smell of soil in the air is an indication of thirsty Earth getting relief from the baking heat of Sun. Hot air is replaced by cold breeze and this is the perfect time for a tea or coffee with “Pakodas”. Luckily, I had both today. The lethal combination of above will be recalled many more times later this monsoon. I am always waiting for such moments.
Till that time comes…